::: final year :::

sejak 2 menjak jadi final year student nieyh hati memang cepat sentap sket -.-"
baru la nak appreciate masa-masa terakhir as a student.
jam2 tuh la nak cuba semua benda
tetibe nak study awal-awal (eh niey bukan azam baru tiap-tiap sem??)
banyak aktiviti kalu boleh nak join.
aktiviti riadah yang tak pernah ada dalam senarai nak buat tibe-tibe rajin kannnn HAHHAH
check list final year:

1. jogging ( / )
2. swimming ( / )
3. tennis (   )
4. squash (   )
5. jalan kaki pusing sekitar UKM ( / )
6. pre-graduation trip (   )
7. AGM indies-club (   )
8. carik jodoh *^_^* (   )

urmmm ape lagi ek??? rase cam banyak jer ari tuhhh hahhhh...

aktiviti pertama untuk sem ini adalah swimming ^_^v.

disebabkan dari kecik kene paksa masuk kelas bagai + abah tak pernah bagi mandi-mand dan bersuka ria

yang dia tau nampak kolam practice T___T

tragik okeyhhhh!! pergi bercuti hanya mampu memandang sepi di kejauhan cousins seronok bermain.

tapi lepas kejadian semalam terus enjoyy swimming BHAHHAHH...

sebab ramai gile lelaki hot (okeyhh bunyi kau sgt gatal perempuan)

lepas niey nak swim kene pakai google kalo tak confirm next time kene buat pembedahan hidung

dok terlanggar dinding terlanggar orang bagaiiiiii...

dah la kau langgar orang kau tolak plak dia ke dasar -__-" ( panic punye pasal kan)

sifat pentingkan diri sendiri itu harus laaaaa hahhahahahhh.

walaupun sem nieyh dah nampak macam aura-aura stress yang tinggi kene la pikir satu langkah untuk release kan stress kan contoh cam aktiviti2 di atas hihihhihi....

keje melambak pown ape ade hal lepas niey keje lagi xmenang tangan.

so stop mengeluh OK..!!

time niey jela kau nak merasa semua niey esok dah keje confirm kau menangis nak blaja balik

selalu je macam tuh...

dulu time skola nak keje tak nak skola..

skang terhegeh-hegeh nak skola balik...

manusia kan....

plsss reti bersyukur boleh x??? note to myself  *yeahhh!!

sila buang aura-aura negatif dan hargai setiap moment yang ada skang

supaya nanti ada kenangan yang manis untuk diecerita kat cucu cicit piut miut bagai =D

p/s : Alhamdulillah for everything 

::: a step into the future :::

ceh tajuk konon hebat -.-"

but that's the thing aii nk menceceh skang.

enough with all the never ending sad stories.

im done with it OK.

lets talk about my future plans.

pergh..perghh..perghhh

startting from 19 Feb 2012 (tarikh mmg cantik laaaa...) register new semester.

so this is the final sem of my final year.

weyh dah tua!!!!!!!!!

lepas tuh konvo (Insyallah)

lepas tuh chambering 

lepas tuh call to the Bar (Insyallah)

lepas tuh keje

too much to think n im almost dying -.-" 

gelabah tak payah cite mane nak cari tempat chambering. 

what exactly yg aii nk buat i mean nk jadi solicitor??

duduk kat office entertain client?

urus jual beli rumah urus itu ini bagai

urus segala macam document consult client

which is BORING

or 

becoming an Advocates?

masuk court 

berhujah sana sini

civil litigant or criminal defence counsel?

kau rase kau hebat nk berhujah???

or

go for legal service dgn kerajaan?

AG/any legal deparment kat kementerian?

BORING 

keje banyak gaji ciput -.-"

tak sedar diri kau punye scholar tuh dari sape kan???

damn!

orang semua dah gelabah cari tempat nak chambering ade yang da dapat, da siap sign contract bagai dah interview sana sini, call firm sana sini

aku dok tercongok dalam bilik layan cerita korea tak habis2.

nak buat kat mane pown aku belom decide...!!

what a mess!!

kenapa kau lembab sgt dalam semua benda weyh???

istighfar banyak2 pls

Allah Allah Allah Allah Allah Allah Allah (100x)

benda niey sume future

kene dceide betol2 jangan main2

no turning back

org ckp lawyer mmg pk duit je

cehhhh!!

YESS i choose to become one

sebab?? 

skang hidup mmg perlukan duit kowt. eh kemon la jgn cakap duit bukan segala-galanya kasih syg pejadah lagi la 2 sume useless.

kau mmg nak hidup mkn bayar dgn kasih syg kejujuran semua kan??

Allah xlarang kalau cita2 nk kaya pown

tp make sure rezeki atau duit yang kau dapat tuh dari sumber yang betol n halal

NO corruption NO riba' etc

then rezeki akan jadi halal dan Insyaallah diberkati

salurkan harta itu ke jalan Allah

dont forget sedekah, zakat

share what ever Allah gives to u with others who need it the most.

tak luak pown kan malah hati akan lebih tenang.

my priority skang lebih kepada nk keje

nak buat duit banyak2 nak bagi mama n abah 

yeah nak bagi diorg banyak2

sebab living cost skang tinggi menggunung

kat kuantan teh tarik je RM2.50. hamek kau xnk tercekik tulang aku nak bayar hari tuh.

see?? tak tipoooo T__T

plus diorg dah banyak susah untuk bagi anak die niey melantak sampai jadi sebesar tong

nak beli baju la

nak itu la nak ini la

macam mama abah keje cop duit -.-"

ok fikir niey semua buat aku lagi cuak T__T

sangat ok!!

what if i dun get any chance to pay them back?

what if i dun get a job?

what if........

whoahh ini betol2 tragedi kehidupan yang paling loser.

rase bersalah seumur hidup like ur nothing!!

spender buruk yg berlubang pown masih berguna nak tutup apa patut. kau???

tapi sebanyak mane kau menceceh kat sini tak decide2 selagi itu tak settle!!

kau tatap cermin sambil puji kecantikan sendiri pown ada cermin tuh nak bg kau jawapan??

kau tengok cerita korea ade Lee min Ho 2 nk bagi kau idea??

kau on fb hari kau tweet sane sini macam dapat inspirasi kan??

uishh camne camne camne??

mintak petunjuk dengan Allah swt

He knows better =)

tapi mintak tanpa usaha takkan kemana

p/s: think smart , work harder and have faith Insyaalah ;p

::: too much on february :::

February has the most unforgettable memories in my life. it is not because of my birthday or valentines day n what not. its just that things always happen on February..!! yeah..!! and  i keep questioning myself why is it so happened in the month of February?? only Allah s.w.t knows why. today as i'm getting older i wish for the best future ahead in whatever i do and also in the hereafter. Insyaalah i will try to put the best effort in me to be a better Muslimah, a daughter, a student, a sister, a worker etc. Allah s.w.t will always be there for me and i pray for His guidance and blessing through out this life.

it has been so long but im still stuck in the world which i've had created for the past 8 months. the world with full of hopeless, helpless, loveless and more less less less. a big LOSER u got there Lenny. *sigh. please wake up!!! stop crying, reminiscing back, missing him or whichever things that will bring you down and hurt you the most. what past is past u cant change anything. living in the world of "Less" bring you nowhere. be realistic..!! he's happy now n obviously WITHOUT you!! those lies which he had told you PLEASE for god sake throw it away!! stop holding on something that will never come into existence. its GONE!! how many times do i have to remind you all these bloody shits!!

it hurts when i go to KFC then it reminds me on how we used to go there togehther.
it hurts when i  go to have dinner with my family and it so happened that  the restaurant is located in front of the shop where we bought a watch and next to it is the shop where you bought me a ring.
it hurts when i go to the karaoke then my friends sing a song that u sang for me back then.
it hurts when my nenek is still asking about you and i dont have any answer for that.
it hurts when your picture is still hanging there in mama's room and i dont have any strength to take it down due to the fact that she doesnt know anything.
it hurts when i can no longer listen to the BSB songs, i'll be crying all night long reminiscing back - we went to their concert and got to know each other (27th February)-
it hurts me the most when everything i do it reminds me of you.

ya Allah, please throw me some light just to get over him.
ya Allah, give me strength
ya Allah, help me to kill this love away  because i cant do it my own
lastly
no matter how hurt it is
ya Allah, i pray for his best in life because that's the only way to thank him for the love given.

im looking forward for an exciting March. please be NICE ok!! im dying for it ^_^

p/s: happy birthday to me =) n many happy returns