::: gelap Bangi gelap :::

last thursday sekitar Bangi + Putrajaya + Serdang bergelap akibat daripada letupan pencawang TNB. Ade sumber mengatakan bangunan TNB yang meletop. Adalah dekat 2 jam bergelap hohohohoh... 

But i was lucky enough sebab time blackout tuh betol-betol tengah keluar makan mencari sesuap rezeki untuk mengalas perottt.... kalau stuck dalam bilik mesti cukup 10 bakul makian aku kumpul akibat bergelap + panas + nyamuk racing. *Alhamdulillah =D.

Before kejadian tuh kitorang baru je decide nak makan kat satu kedai area bangi niey tapi full house then elok je kitorang keluar dari kedai tuh TUPPP gelap satu bangi... ohoiii kecoh la kedai kan.

then jalan jauh sket cari makan and nasib baik kedai tuh ade elektrik. 

kalau tak abis la kena turun KL semata-mata nak makan fuhhhh....

dalam orang lain dok sebok bergelap kepanasan kenyamukkan kitorang melantak tanpa menghiraukan kegelapan orang lain yeahhh!!.

menu si kecik Rizalia =)

ini Naima punye =)

pentamak dengan air kelapa gelas besar pastuh tak abis!!! sigh*

last skali haruslah menu yang lagi sedappppp dan menyelerakan....!!!!!!!!! lame mengidam nieyhhh

tak la sesedap spaghetti air tangan kiri kakma tapi agak worth la

balik dengan penuh kekenyangan sambil mengharapkan elektrik takde sampai esok pagi.

macam-macam assumption buat :

"letrik xde so UKM cuti sbb camne nak beroperasi"

"kelas esok cancel sebab mic, aircond,lampu, sume xle pasang"

 TAPI.......

disebabkan TNB Malaysia sangat efisyen dan committed dengan tugas mereka maka harapan kami berkubur sahaja sambil balik meratapi ade 30 kes nak kena baca untuk kelas esok.

muka masing-masing haruslah ketat.

padahal time blackout ayat-ayat sebegini penuh di dada-dada lama sosial oleh rakan sekelas:

"ala blackout aku dah la banyak kes nak kena baca"

"macam mana nak baca kes nieyh gelappp..!!"

"kena cari mamak berhampiran untuk duduk study baca kes"

(sindrom tutorial Naaishah memang menjadi-jadi)

NAMUN.....

aku hati kering balik ada letrik terus tido macam ular sawa baru lepas telan kambing.

kes baca dalam mimpi jelah....

pastuh kau gelaabah sampai tak cukup tisu lap peluh time kelas sebab takut kena panggil kan..!!!

bila kau nak berubah perempuann!!!

::: final year :::

sejak 2 menjak jadi final year student nieyh hati memang cepat sentap sket -.-"
baru la nak appreciate masa-masa terakhir as a student.
jam2 tuh la nak cuba semua benda
tetibe nak study awal-awal (eh niey bukan azam baru tiap-tiap sem??)
banyak aktiviti kalu boleh nak join.
aktiviti riadah yang tak pernah ada dalam senarai nak buat tibe-tibe rajin kannnn HAHHAH
check list final year:

1. jogging ( / )
2. swimming ( / )
3. tennis (   )
4. squash (   )
5. jalan kaki pusing sekitar UKM ( / )
6. pre-graduation trip (   )
7. AGM indies-club (   )
8. carik jodoh *^_^* (   )

urmmm ape lagi ek??? rase cam banyak jer ari tuhhh hahhhh...

aktiviti pertama untuk sem ini adalah swimming ^_^v.

disebabkan dari kecik kene paksa masuk kelas bagai + abah tak pernah bagi mandi-mand dan bersuka ria

yang dia tau nampak kolam practice T___T

tragik okeyhhhh!! pergi bercuti hanya mampu memandang sepi di kejauhan cousins seronok bermain.

tapi lepas kejadian semalam terus enjoyy swimming BHAHHAHH...

sebab ramai gile lelaki hot (okeyhh bunyi kau sgt gatal perempuan)

lepas niey nak swim kene pakai google kalo tak confirm next time kene buat pembedahan hidung

dok terlanggar dinding terlanggar orang bagaiiiiii...

dah la kau langgar orang kau tolak plak dia ke dasar -__-" ( panic punye pasal kan)

sifat pentingkan diri sendiri itu harus laaaaa hahhahahahhh.

walaupun sem nieyh dah nampak macam aura-aura stress yang tinggi kene la pikir satu langkah untuk release kan stress kan contoh cam aktiviti2 di atas hihihhihi....

keje melambak pown ape ade hal lepas niey keje lagi xmenang tangan.

so stop mengeluh OK..!!

time niey jela kau nak merasa semua niey esok dah keje confirm kau menangis nak blaja balik

selalu je macam tuh...

dulu time skola nak keje tak nak skola..

skang terhegeh-hegeh nak skola balik...

manusia kan....

plsss reti bersyukur boleh x??? note to myself  *yeahhh!!

sila buang aura-aura negatif dan hargai setiap moment yang ada skang

supaya nanti ada kenangan yang manis untuk diecerita kat cucu cicit piut miut bagai =D

p/s : Alhamdulillah for everything 

::: a step into the future :::

ceh tajuk konon hebat -.-"

but that's the thing aii nk menceceh skang.

enough with all the never ending sad stories.

im done with it OK.

lets talk about my future plans.

pergh..perghh..perghhh

startting from 19 Feb 2012 (tarikh mmg cantik laaaa...) register new semester.

so this is the final sem of my final year.

weyh dah tua!!!!!!!!!

lepas tuh konvo (Insyallah)

lepas tuh chambering 

lepas tuh call to the Bar (Insyallah)

lepas tuh keje

too much to think n im almost dying -.-" 

gelabah tak payah cite mane nak cari tempat chambering. 

what exactly yg aii nk buat i mean nk jadi solicitor??

duduk kat office entertain client?

urus jual beli rumah urus itu ini bagai

urus segala macam document consult client

which is BORING

or 

becoming an Advocates?

masuk court 

berhujah sana sini

civil litigant or criminal defence counsel?

kau rase kau hebat nk berhujah???

or

go for legal service dgn kerajaan?

AG/any legal deparment kat kementerian?

BORING 

keje banyak gaji ciput -.-"

tak sedar diri kau punye scholar tuh dari sape kan???

damn!

orang semua dah gelabah cari tempat nak chambering ade yang da dapat, da siap sign contract bagai dah interview sana sini, call firm sana sini

aku dok tercongok dalam bilik layan cerita korea tak habis2.

nak buat kat mane pown aku belom decide...!!

what a mess!!

kenapa kau lembab sgt dalam semua benda weyh???

istighfar banyak2 pls

Allah Allah Allah Allah Allah Allah Allah (100x)

benda niey sume future

kene dceide betol2 jangan main2

no turning back

org ckp lawyer mmg pk duit je

cehhhh!!

YESS i choose to become one

sebab?? 

skang hidup mmg perlukan duit kowt. eh kemon la jgn cakap duit bukan segala-galanya kasih syg pejadah lagi la 2 sume useless.

kau mmg nak hidup mkn bayar dgn kasih syg kejujuran semua kan??

Allah xlarang kalau cita2 nk kaya pown

tp make sure rezeki atau duit yang kau dapat tuh dari sumber yang betol n halal

NO corruption NO riba' etc

then rezeki akan jadi halal dan Insyaallah diberkati

salurkan harta itu ke jalan Allah

dont forget sedekah, zakat

share what ever Allah gives to u with others who need it the most.

tak luak pown kan malah hati akan lebih tenang.

my priority skang lebih kepada nk keje

nak buat duit banyak2 nak bagi mama n abah 

yeah nak bagi diorg banyak2

sebab living cost skang tinggi menggunung

kat kuantan teh tarik je RM2.50. hamek kau xnk tercekik tulang aku nak bayar hari tuh.

see?? tak tipoooo T__T

plus diorg dah banyak susah untuk bagi anak die niey melantak sampai jadi sebesar tong

nak beli baju la

nak itu la nak ini la

macam mama abah keje cop duit -.-"

ok fikir niey semua buat aku lagi cuak T__T

sangat ok!!

what if i dun get any chance to pay them back?

what if i dun get a job?

what if........

whoahh ini betol2 tragedi kehidupan yang paling loser.

rase bersalah seumur hidup like ur nothing!!

spender buruk yg berlubang pown masih berguna nak tutup apa patut. kau???

tapi sebanyak mane kau menceceh kat sini tak decide2 selagi itu tak settle!!

kau tatap cermin sambil puji kecantikan sendiri pown ada cermin tuh nak bg kau jawapan??

kau tengok cerita korea ade Lee min Ho 2 nk bagi kau idea??

kau on fb hari kau tweet sane sini macam dapat inspirasi kan??

uishh camne camne camne??

mintak petunjuk dengan Allah swt

He knows better =)

tapi mintak tanpa usaha takkan kemana

p/s: think smart , work harder and have faith Insyaalah ;p

::: too much on february :::

February has the most unforgettable memories in my life. it is not because of my birthday or valentines day n what not. its just that things always happen on February..!! yeah..!! and  i keep questioning myself why is it so happened in the month of February?? only Allah s.w.t knows why. today as i'm getting older i wish for the best future ahead in whatever i do and also in the hereafter. Insyaalah i will try to put the best effort in me to be a better Muslimah, a daughter, a student, a sister, a worker etc. Allah s.w.t will always be there for me and i pray for His guidance and blessing through out this life.

it has been so long but im still stuck in the world which i've had created for the past 8 months. the world with full of hopeless, helpless, loveless and more less less less. a big LOSER u got there Lenny. *sigh. please wake up!!! stop crying, reminiscing back, missing him or whichever things that will bring you down and hurt you the most. what past is past u cant change anything. living in the world of "Less" bring you nowhere. be realistic..!! he's happy now n obviously WITHOUT you!! those lies which he had told you PLEASE for god sake throw it away!! stop holding on something that will never come into existence. its GONE!! how many times do i have to remind you all these bloody shits!!

it hurts when i go to KFC then it reminds me on how we used to go there togehther.
it hurts when i  go to have dinner with my family and it so happened that  the restaurant is located in front of the shop where we bought a watch and next to it is the shop where you bought me a ring.
it hurts when i go to the karaoke then my friends sing a song that u sang for me back then.
it hurts when my nenek is still asking about you and i dont have any answer for that.
it hurts when your picture is still hanging there in mama's room and i dont have any strength to take it down due to the fact that she doesnt know anything.
it hurts when i can no longer listen to the BSB songs, i'll be crying all night long reminiscing back - we went to their concert and got to know each other (27th February)-
it hurts me the most when everything i do it reminds me of you.

ya Allah, please throw me some light just to get over him.
ya Allah, give me strength
ya Allah, help me to kill this love away  because i cant do it my own
lastly
no matter how hurt it is
ya Allah, i pray for his best in life because that's the only way to thank him for the love given.

im looking forward for an exciting March. please be NICE ok!! im dying for it ^_^

p/s: happy birthday to me =) n many happy returns

::: for god sake :::

 i was thinking that

you were trying so damn hard to put shits on me

and of course 

that fucking shits annoyed me well enough

and the saddest part is

 i need to go through all these asshole things

oh yeah im flattered (blerghhh)

for once in a while
have you ever figure out what others may think of??

i'll bet u don't
you don't even have that kind of common sense 

because your happiness is all that matters

p/s:being in love is equal of being looked stupid 

::: I Won't Give Up :::

When I look into your eyes

It's like watching the night sky

Or a beautiful sunrise

So much they hold

And just like them old stars

I see that you've come so far

To be right where you are

How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space

To do some navigating

I'll be here patiently waiting

To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn

Some even fall to the earth

We got a lot to learn

God knows we're worth it

No I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily

I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use

The tools, the skills we've got yeah we got a lot at stake

And in the end, you're still my friend at least we didn't tend

For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn

We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in

I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not

And who I am

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up

So easy is our life

What's mine is yours and yours mine

Hardly do we ever fight

We'd rather be kind

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get dark

I'm healing this broken heart

And I know I'm worth it

I won't give up on us

God knows I'm tough, I am love

We got a lot to learn

God knows we're worth it

No I won't give up on us

God knows I've had enough

We got a lot to learn

And we're, and we're worth it

No I won't give up

No I won't give up

p/s : easier said than done

::: welcoming 2012 :::

To be honest im not a good writer n not even a good poet bhahha ( perasaan dowh). But since everyone is writing n posting  wut they want, what are they wishing for this coming 2012, makes me want to write a bit bout it (damn pathetic). Starting with wut i've had gone through in 2011. Well ummhh... it seems to me that 2011 wasn't  a good year for me. It did left me with lots of sadness ........ cant even think of a word to describe it. At this moment all the memories are doing a great job by playing themselves like im watching tv series or movies (secara marathon). Even now duduk dan type facing the wall pown da macam watching movies kt big screen (ala mcm kat kedai mamak tuh). Too much ( ) n im even thinking of putting some footnotes.  It clearly shows that betapa teruknya penulisan hamba Allah ini. (hate my self).  sigh....!!!! get back to the main story lorrr... urmmm manusia mana yang hidup xde masalah kat dunia niey kan?? siapa yang mampu hidup bahagia tanpa dugaan. Bersyukurlah kerana Allah menimpakan kita dengan masalah. Things happen for a reason. with all the hardship u've gone through in ur life will make u become a better person. Insyallah la if u take that as a lesson. kalau jadi macam mencurah air ke daun keladi duduk jela kat tepi paya or tepi longkang tuh sampai bila2. ahhahhaha... people learn through experiences and people do change from it too. For me i should think of how to make a move. I hate myself for still living in the past n hoping for a miracle to knock on my door. owh naahhh plz tears dun play ur role now, i'm writing. cant u see that? damn u..!!

Banyak benda nak cerita but dunno how to put it into writing. this is why i hate exams.So many things to write will end up with all shits on my answer sheets... woahhh "shits and sheets" cool =)  bhahahah....?? I did mentioned that things happen for a reason rite? well it actually does.I thank Allah untuk semua-semua yang ditimpaakan ke atas diri ini. kalau tidak..... diri ini masih hidup dengan kembongkakkan mendabik dada hingga lupa asal dan tanggungjawab sebagai khalifah di bumi ini. Hidup tidak pernah melahirkan rasa kesyukuran setiap kali bangkit dari tidur melambangkan siapa aku yang sebelumnya. Yang ada hanya luahan dan keluhan tidak sekelumit rase tahu bersyukur. Sifat manusia tidak pernah tahu bersyukur. So here i would like to thank to those who came into my life and left me just like that. Sebab tanpa mu hidup ini xmenarik. Some said " Allah mendatangkan seseorang itu dalam kehidupan kita ada sebabnya walaupuan hanya 2minit" (isu nye skang knape 2 minit?? nape bukan 1 saat?? ooo...mungkin 2 minit adalah masa yang ckp untuk mengetahui nama n tgglkan kenangan. kalo 1 saat ape yg kau nak ingat lenny??). For those yg still here by my side thank u for ur support, thank u for always be there for me, thank u for making me realize that yang aku niey xde la sorang2 pown hahhahahah.... those who will come into my life plssss be prepared because "good girl gone bad" (sbb lagu ini sedang dimainkan di laptop) cehcechehe....

I was thinking of spending my last 2011 at look up point in ampang reminiscing, but i end up to just stay in my room. Do i really need to go out??? reminiscing dalam bilik pown ok what?? bhahahha.... u'll become 23 next year dah tua kowt.. childish sgt nak keluar and celebrate new year. no feeling at all. dari kecik dah salu sgt kuar celebrate (sebab dulu kalo xkuar celebrate NY xcool). so now dah xde feeling nak terkinja-kinja tgk fireworks bagai... thanks to mama for letting me experienced all those things dari kecik. bila dah besar niey dah xrase apa sgt... see i told ya!!some things happen for a reason. (ok kau merepek ape nieyh -___-). For this coming 2012, im hoping for a great fantastic year ahead. dear mr. sadness plz do leave me as wut 2011 will do in few hours. i really am welcoming mr happiness to be my life partner yeayyy!!!but hey, the love  will still remain there. terpasak jauh ke lubuk hati masih menanti janji kosong yang terpatri ...(again damn u mr sadness interfering in my wrinting). Suddenly theory nasi lemak kimi just came into picture " sesorang akan mengatakan dia dah jumpa nasi lemak terbaik sehingglah dia jumpa yang lagi sedap" (-.-). 2012 adalah tahun to build my career heee =D.berazam untuk lebih produktif n bersungguh2 sambil tidak lupa akan tanggungjawab kepada agama, keluarga, negara, bangsa dan dunia. THAT'S ALL FOR NOW. 

-HAPPY NeW YEAR-

P/S:  having cherry berry at the very last hour of 2011 will not make a good start of 2012 i guess...